Monday Let Down

Ived had a busy weekend with family visiting from out of state. There was a lot of energy and going out to visit places I normally would not have been and smiles and fun. We did have a good time. Some reminiscing happened which inspired me to make some surprises. . . . . On the mini adrenaline rush in creativity! Small things feel sooooo good after being depressed for 5 month. Now I am back in my little apartment. It is kind of messy at the moment and I'm trying to figure out how to step back normal. For the moment it feels like a let down and I want to find my next exciting thing to do. . . . . Kind of like Mania. . . . . . Or Addiction. . . . . .

I think instead of thinking of it as humdrum normal if I can think of it as celebrations. Instead of saying "I need to make dinner just because I need to eat" I can say "I am going to make dinner and celebrate that I accomplished something." Instead of celebrating going out, I am going to celebrate staying in. Instead of celebrating a new thing I just purchased I am going to celebrate using an old one. My celebrations don't have to stop but what I celebrate changes. Eventually shifting back into "normal" may not be so difficult but for now changing my thinking is helping me transition. It's not the same as going out and laughing with others but it is better then just drudging my way though life. Normal dosen't have to be bad or a let down. I'm going to make a list of things to do this evening and decide which one I'm going to celebrate first.

Takeaways

• Make everything a celebration

• Changing how you frame something can have some impact on how you feel towards the situation

• I'm changing from operating out of my feeling brain into a thinking brain - making lists help this